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A Letter from God on letting go of your addict
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By Jeremy Cleaver on Sunday, March 9, 2014 at 9:10pm
A Letter from God on letting go of your addict… substitute daughter, husband, wife, etc for the one named son here.
Beloved,
You want to hear from me about letting your son go. You are not abandoning him, as much as it may feel like it. You are simply transferring his well-being from your care to mine.
It was never my intention for you to direct, guide, and control his life. That is my role. Yours in the beginning was to love him, protect him, and teach him. You've done that. He was never yours to keep. To have peace you must let him go. Your stubborn self-will only gets in the way of the plans I have for him.
I know it is not your intention to interfere, but you are. You are not all- wise and all-powerful. You cannot remove his disease. You cannot love him to wellness. Only I can do that.
You must trust that I care for your son's well-being. You must trust that I love him more than your human love can. My thoughts, my ways, my plans are bigger than you can comprehend. Your lives are so short, yet you waste so much time in worry and fear.
Yes, your son may cut his life short. That is not my intention, but his choice. He must trust me also, and seek to have a relationship with me. Only then can I work in his life. I will not force myself on him or you. I am very willing to be involved in your lives, but only to the degree that you allow. We both know what a struggle trusting me has been for you.
You can't make it any easier for your son to trust me. He has to find me on his own. Let him do that.
Get out of the way. Love him as my child, the way I love you. But let him go so that he can be himself whoever that may be.
We're in this together. You can come to me anytime to tell me your worries and concerns. I'll listen, I always have. But I may choose to be silent. Thatâs my way of growing and stretching you.
I know you love your son, and I love you for that. But ultimately, he is my child. Entrust him to me and you will grow. You will find the peace that you want. You have so much in your own life to focus on. Focus on growing yourself, and let me worry about your son.
Loving you always,
Your Higher Power
I just read this….and i am crying like a baby. I wanted to stop reading, after the first few sentences, but i pushed through the fear and completed it. I am so scared that he is going to die from his addiction. But reading this letter only confirmed what I need to honestly process: I need to get out of the way and trust my husband to God. Nothing has worked that i have tried, nothing. No matter how many tears; how loud i have spoken; how much i have tried to reason with him…..nothing so far has worked, and this is year #20. I need prayer, help and support so badly…i just cannot handle all that i am being faced with. I don't think i have ever really looked at the truth of my life, until now. I am so overwhelmed…and I don't know how to walk this out. All I know is that i need to face the truth: my husband has an addiction and I never knew how to help him, i only did things that enabled him. I did what i knew how to do, but nevertheless, all that i have done, well MOST of it, has not helped, but has only hurt him. This reality is making me want to vomit. I feel hatred toward myself…and the questions flood me: "Why didn't i know sooner, Why didn't I trust him to God???? To be honest, i made light of the situation. I didn't really think he had an addiction until maybe the past few years. I think i have lived in denial all of our marriage. So much of this is hard…but I want my life to change and i am committing to doing things differently, 1 day (1 moment) at a time.
This is where I am at right now ,I want so bad for God to take over but I keep getting in the way.im living in fear ,every time my son is near me not in a physical way but but every other way ,fear of all the what ifs ,I’ve tried to detach from him bit he keeps drawing me back into his life drama ,reading God’s letter I cried because that’s how and what God would say to me if we were to sit down together, thank you for this while I know it’s a good few years since it was posted it rings so very true today .Thank you
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