My name is Ellie, I am sad to say that I am here in this position where I am in love with someone who has been using drugs and alcohol to live a everyday life. I have been with this person for a year and before that we met and knew each other for another two years. This past year it has been a rough ride from days or months that everything is perfect to days and months that my nightmares are alive. It all started with a drink here and there and I keep seeing my partner getting drunk and drinking every day and night. The drinking got so bad that I was chasing my partner in bars and had to beg police and bar owners to not have my partner arrested. Fights between us got worse, money wise its been bad, things were just horrible and still is. For while after that the drinking got less and I thought things were in control but my partner started hanging with some people who not only they were drinkers but did heavy meth and other drugs…things really went down hill from there, many lies and tricks were told to me, many hours my partner disappeared and me crying and having panic attacks, car missing and gotten damaged, and even my jewelry that my dad bought me for my birthday was pawned for drug money, I never felt so alone and heart broken and hurt in my life. I keep supporting and telling my partner Im here to help with the addiction and even going to NA meetings, looking at rehab options, tried to help my partner avoid people and places that trigger. Nothing has worked and until today, my partner disappears, tells me rehab is anyday now, uses every money we have for god knows what. I am at a breaking point and don't know what to do. I don't want the cops involved because I work in legal field and don't want anyone knowing my life is this shitty and fucked up that people I put away for drugs and all, well one of them is now my partner. I really need support and help figuring out what to do, how to fix or remove, and get prayers so god can give me strength.
Thank you.
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