Nar-Anon Chat™

Hi All,
The reason behind me being unsure is I lost my love one to addiction, but theres really no private no judgement place to turn to in my time of grief.
I lost my fiance and father of our 2 year old son on September 7, 2016, me and my son woke up that morning to find him dead in our kitchen. I myself am not an addict and I have felt nothing but guilt and regret since that day, and Ive just been looking for a place where I can talk. I dont want to see a shrink and i feel people will be to judgey if I go to group grief counseling, so if Im not in the right spot and soneone can point me in the right direction or even if Im good here that would be great! Thank you!