Hi there, here I go again 🙁
Has been a while since I have been in the rooms, but I am back again for my own peace of mind and eternal search for serenity in every aspect of my life that I can. I have this habit of gravitating toward people that I perceive to be in need of help (especially people with addictions) and completely tire myself out over-compensating and accommodating every need of another person then eventually feel resentful when my own needs are left on the doormat. I have a new friend that I have met fresh out of rehab and in recovery. I do not want to wander down that same self destructive path with what could possibly be a wonderful new friendship(or am I just kidding myself?)
Thank You so much for your response it is much appreciated. I am sure you can relate. I am one that has to fix everything and help everyone. But no one has that kind of power. A deep character flaw that I must attend to minute by minute in my pursuit of recovery. I also need to somehow let go of past hurts and wrongs done to me by addicts in my life that send me into attack mode at every new one that I meet on the daily basis. This is unacceptable to me about myself especially with my new career prospect and I can't continue to just remove people from my life just because they are addicted. This problem lies deep within my spirit I know. I seem to have lost the ability to see and admire the person and people behind the disease. For this reason I am back and will continue to keep coming back for the hope and serenity I so desperately seek
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