Nar-Anon Chat™

[b][/b]This is my first time visiting the sight. I feel very alone as my husband is the addict and I don't have a to go for support. But now I hope to have found one.

My husband and I used together and I have been clean and sober for 22 years. My husband had never gotten help until he almost died. If our daughter hadn't come home from school, studying for final examines,he should have died. I wasn't going to check on him because I was pissed off. I knew he was loaded and I was like, screw you. So he went to treatment, had no option. He was clean and sober for 2 years and 5 months. He has been using for the last 5 months. I would never had known except I got off work early and walked into him naked, smoking Meth, and watching porn. I have been so angry and I feel betrayed. I felt as something had been going on, but he of course said no, but I always knew he was using, but i couldn't prove it.

So here I am 2 months later and he's still using and not committing to any program. he said he's going to go, but he can't find anyone to cover his shift. i said it doesn't matter and he needs to get it together and get started if he's going to go.

So, if he doesn't go, I will be locking him out by changing the locks and delivering him his clothes to his work. He get's mad and start's yelling because he say's i'm being unreasonable. typical.

So,I'm done and don't know how to be strong through this. I'm telling myself I need to. Someone need's to be strong and push to make things better for myself and hope he can join the me on this journey.

No-more waiting and I need to keep my head up and focus on the good for my soul.

Thanks or listening.