Hello all,
I am a recovering alcoholic. Uncertain of whether I should even call myself that. Started psychiatric treatment and haven’t had any issues since. I don’t crave alcohol. Just a way to dull my senses when I was an unmedicated bipolar individual.
I’m not here for myself. I’m here because of my fiance. He is a heroin addict, though he will abuse pretty much anything. I engage in harm reduction (narcan, fentanyl test strips in the house), but each time he relapses I am more and more afraid I will find him dead. He has already nearly drowned in the bathtub twice.
I do not know how to avoid codependency. I do not know the right way to behave. I do not know what to expect as life goes on. Ex: What will kids do to the situation?
He is attempting to go it alone in terms of recovery and withdrawal. Admirable in a way, since it indicates he understands he must do this of his own accord. Also stupid, as the likelihood he can do it alone is slim to none. He doesn’t respond to tough love. I won’t deliver ultimatums because I am fairly certain it won’t do anything except worsen the situation. Though we aren’t married, I’m in this.
Sorry for rambling. I don’t have anyone I can talk to.
TLDR: Fiance is a heroin/fentanyl addict who is trying to recover by himself. I’m scared, lonely, and worried I’m an enabler. I really need people to talk to.
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