I never in a million years thought I would need something like this but Iâm desperate to find connections with people that understand what Iâm going through. This post may be long and all over he place, I truly donât know where to begin.
I have been with my husband for 7 years and we have been married for 2.It has been complete hell since we got married and before if Iâm being honest with myself.
Heâs an opiate addict, and Iâm recently finding maybe a sex addict. In fact, I only stumbled upon his secret email address a couple of days ago where I have found he signed up for dating sites and Ashley Madison. Iâm completely lost and heartbroken.
My husband has been a ârecoveringâ opiate addict. He has been in and out of rehab 3 times, in patient and out patient and just ends up making connections with people from there and using with them. The same with his na meetings, he seems to flock to the people that arenât serious about it and connects with them. Iâm at my wits end. He claims that he cares and wants to recover but he never really pursues recovery unless I remind him to.
Iâve had to call 911 4 times in the middle of the night because he has suffered grand meal seizures from his using and withdrawing.
He has recently gotten drugs from my disabled sister(yes, this keeps getting worse) and we separated for a few months but are now back in the same house.
He is now getting drugs from his co workers, pretending to have pain so unbearable and making them feel sorry for him so if he asks, they share.
He is constantly using and lying. Heâs so good at lying that Iâm starting to question my sanity. He has been arrested once and had to serve time for stealing poppy seeds to make poppy seed tea. He has a stable job and is extremely high functioning as an addict. Itâs extremely sad because he is a kind person and giving.
I honestly left out so much because itâs too much to type. Iâm just lost and in shock, I feel my life spiraling and I feel so alone. I isolate myself because I donât even have the energy to deal with being social after his bs.
Let me start by saying welcome and boy can I relate to your story. Thats actually why I am here too. I have found a tremendous amount of support in the chatroom. I have learned that an addicts actions speak, not their voice and how to take care of myself regardless of if my addict is actively using or not. I hope you attend meetings. I have learned a lot about addiction from them and have been able to make lifelong connections with some of the members in the room. I hope you find the same thing. Maybe we can meet some day and chat….
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