Hi Linda, welcome to NaranonChat. I'm interested in hearing your story if you feel like sharing here on the board or privately via chat room or email ** you do not have permission to see this link **. Hope to hear from you soon.
Yours in service and friendship,
Annie
Never look down on someone unless you're leaning over to help them up.
Annie, Thank you so much for responding …I have lived with addiction for 30 years. The addict in my life primarily is my husband of 25 years, but my 21 year old daughter struggles as well. His drug of choice was heroin in the service in the mid 70's, switched to alcohol for many, many years until he discovered oxycontin. Route of choice is IV. Has been in treatment many, many times. Was on Suboxone for 6 years. Within the past year, he has been in a month long treatment program, been in detox once and discovered that his Hep C has returned and now has Stage IV Cirrhosis of liver. In spite of that continues to use…Tramadol today, but I know that it will escalate again to Morphine and on. Hundreds of dollars spent on drugs and recovery; still has his job; 3 daughters love him, but have lost faith and trust in him. Me….I eat too much, strugggle with depression and am emotionally and physically exhausted from this life. This life is what I know and in the bizarre way that addiction grabs hold it is comfortable, but not healthy. I do not know what it is like to live with trust and honesty,yet those are core values/beliefs for me. I long for a healthier life, free of suspicion amd lies, but feel paralyzed and also am fearful of loneliness and the unknown. That is why my request…plea is for courage, strength and hope. Thank you for listening. Linda
Linda, is there a local Nar-Anon or Al-Anon meeting in your area? I've found that when I surround myself with healthy people (emotionally healthy) I become stronger. You know the old saying, "nothing changes if nothing changes" is so true. Guess I found my strength in prayer, attending meetings here, the support ofthis group and knowing that I'd be stuck in the same situation for the rest of my life if I didn't do something about it. My Higher Power gave me free will to choose my own path. In the beginning I wasn't strong enough to do it on my own so I leaned on the members of this group. They held me up until I was strong enough to stand on my own. It took time, but one little step at a time is getting me where I want to be. They have been small steps but they have led me down a happier and healthier path. Doesn't mean I don't stumble along the way, just means it's easier to pick myself up and dust myself off. Isn't it strange how easy it is to keep the focus on everyone else in our lives but ourselves when we're the only one who can move us forward? You've taken a step in the right direction by reaching out to this community. I know you have the strength to take another, then another. We're all here to support you along the way.
Hugs, Annie
Never look down on someone unless you're leaning over to help them up.
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