I’ve been with my Boyfriend (fiance) for 8 years this month. He has addiction problems with pain killers mostly.. I’ve been through too much with him to post.. I’m traumatized. we now have a two year old son- and I refuse to have his addiction problem around my son. He claimed when our son was born he’d get off the meds… addicts truly tell you what you want to hear at that moment so they can continue to have their cake and eat it too.. because here we are.. he’s also addicted to weed, and Nicotine mints. He’s a lot better now than when we first met, but “better” isn’t best for my son.
I have my own share of problems. No addictions, but social anxiety which has kept me from going to any Nar-anon meetings, or any kind of therapy. I can’t keep a job because of it, so I have no money to leave. My boyfriend is the breadwinner. He’s a “functioning” addict.. but I feel like I’VE hit rock bottom, and I just want out. He’s emotionally abusive, and I’m so unhappy and I want my son to have the best life he could have, and I can’t give it to him feeling this way. I want out, but I also want my son to have a good strong father figure.. I wanted a happy family. But unfortunately drug addicts put their own feelings ahead of everyone else.
I’m here to listen, and learn, and get the help I need. Thank you for reading any of this, and I hope all of us here get the peace we need in our lives.
You literally hit the nail on the head. My situation is so close to yours. I have also been In a relationship for 8 years. His drug of choice is meth and it has completely torn us and everything I have tried to build, apart. I am the one with a job. We have no kids. I feel like I enable him since he doesn’t have a job because I make sure he has a roof over his head and I make sure he has food in his stomach. He attempted suicide in 2017 and that completely traumatized me. He did it because I was fed up and I told him I was done. Done enough to actually leave. Now here I am, afraid to leave for fear that he will kill himself and in the past couple years it has just gotten worse. His dad died a couple months ago and we found him… we also all lived together and things have been a complete shit show since. I feel like I cant say much because he is dealing with so so much while already having a lot of mental issues… now this. I just don’t know what to do. I have a good job and I try to just deal with everything. I constantly find myself telling him that Idk why he cant just deal with everything like a man… I deal with everything without any drugs WHY CANT HE?! And I know that isn’t the right thing to do. If im nice about it, he feels like its ok to use. If im mean about it, we just fight and he uses more. Im at the point where I want to completely give up on myself because I cant leave him.
If you ever need anyone to talk to, please reach out to me. I would love to chat with someone going through something similar… someone that will actually understand when everyone else around me doesn’t.
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