Nar-Anon Chat™

Hi new friends. Reaching out to some new sources. I know this is long, please read:)
My husband of 10 years is a meth addict. Although we have been on this battle for only a year recently it has taken a toll on me. There have been a lot of sober periods where he thinks he has it under control , then he would relapse and try and again. He was good and clean for almost 4 months and about a month ago that went down the drain and he's been using almost every day now. I am in this , so please don't tell me to leave.Our newest accomplishment— He is honest with me and that's a huge deal to me. If I ask him about using , he tells me. Instead of getting high and running the roads, he comes home. As much as I don't like him around while he's been using, Id rather him home than out doing god knows what. However the downside to all this is recently , this past week, my anxiety has sky rocketed. I've felt super distracted and a tad bit down. Once I get home, there is just so much going on around me I take care of the kids, and get in bed. Shut it all out. I am EXTREMELY clairsentiencent. Meaning I feed off of my husbands energy. I can honestly feel his anxiety, anger, sadness. He doesn't even have to tell me if he has been using , I know. He has been going to meetings for a month now,hes been to about 4 or 5 of them. We live in a very small town and he knows a lot of the people that attend, and the program he is doing is mandated by people on drug offender probation. He's the only one in the program that is going voluntarily. No one in the program takes it seriously or wants to be there, so he is going to start one on one sessions, he feels the group session isnt for him. Also, I've been looking into marriage counseling for us as well. Anyways, thats my run down, im glad to be here and ready to talk