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I don't even know where to start, but I grew up in a home with an alcoholic father and co-dependent mother. My first husband was a serial cheater and alcoholic. My current boyfriend and I have been together 8 years and he is an addict, we have 3 small children. He has always been a heavy marijuana user and in the last few years he became addicted to norcos and cocaine and even started smoking heroin He went to rehab about a year and 1/2 ago and we even moved out of state and things seemed to be going great, he was in therapy and was taking medication for his ADHD and was attending his NA meetings. About a year and a half he relapsed and most recently he started using again. I am exhausted both mentally and physically caring for our children and the household. He goes to work and provides for the family, but when he comes home it is like he is disconnected. I am in a new state with no real friends and no family, I don't have anyone to talk to about this that would understand. This past month he has gotten "sick" at least 4 times a week, he just lays in bed and try to "sleep" it off. I dont know what to think or do anymore, when I try to talk to him about this he just gets mad. He thinks I am making a big deal over nothing. I almost feel crazy. I guess I just feel so alone.
Hi honey 🙂 yes, its a very lonely thing being the spouse of an addict. They are very sick but we become sick too. From the stress and near obsession we have in watching them and worrying and hoping things will change. But they wont change unless they want it to. Thats what ive found anyway. And that may mean making some hard decisions. If you have people in another state who can help you, you may have to leave with the kids and go back there for awhile. See if you can get a job soon too. That will give you some confidence to start making some changes for you and the kids. You have to take care of yourself and the kids first and foremost. And keep coming back here to share and see how others are doing. It helps to share your pain with those who are also living it
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