My name is Janet and my partner /husband is a addict. Today he went nuts and hurt me. I ended up in the hospital. After I was let go I came home to rest. (we don't live together full time long story) Well I start to rest when I get a call from the same hospital saying to come there fast that he is going to icu. He is now on a vent. Was told he had multiple drugs in him and that we will have to take it say by day. I don't know what to feel. I'm so hurt and confused and don't know where to turn.
Good Morning Janet and welcome to naranon chat. My now ex-husband is also my addict and I have had similar experiences (though I never ended up in the hospital). When dealing with an addict, the emotional rollercoaster is crazy. Mixed emotions are a common occurrence. I was often angry and sad about things that he would do to me and others, yet at the same time would be "sympathetic" and "upset" about his emotional/physical state as well. It is a very natural struggle when someone you love is going through addiction. Since it has been a few days since you originally posted, I am hoping his condition has improved and that you are taking the necessary time for yourself. Your headline stated that you "don't know where to begin," but the reality is that you already have begun by beginning to search and finding this site. I highly suggest that you attend a lot of meetings in here and use the chatroom for free chat as well. This chatroom has saved my sanity and I know it can do that same for you if you keep coming back. I often am saddened by those who don't give it enough time for the awkwardness of being new to disappear. Once I was able to look past my own fears and insecurities, the support I have found in here is incredible. I hope to someday have the opportunity to speak with you!
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