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I've been addicted to prescription opioids for 6 years, I was always functional, went to work kept a roof over my families head(I am the sole income) I finally realized I was becoming less functional,doing shady stuff and decided to turn to maintenance drugs, I've always felt a cold turkey detox would prevent me from providing for my family(I've tried) its been 9 months and I'm sick of the metaphorical band aid im wearing, it has saved my marriage and my family ill give it that but I don't consider myself sober, I feel handcuffed to it. Its a pain in the ass,its expensive and it feels unhealthy yet when I try to make a jump its total misery, cant work my labor intensive job,cant afford time off and I cannot help my wife raise my boys I literally feel doomed to be a maintenance drug slave. I have a plan, taper down and switch to naltrexone its just getting there. I get the impression ill never be who I was again
Well, none of us will be who were, we can only be who we are now and will be in the future. This does not mean you can't be a better you than you ever were before, even though it will be a different version. Give yourself some credit…it has only been 9 months and some people take years to taper off of maintenance drugs. This is neither good nor bad, it is just a fact. There is no deadline, taper as slowly as you can/need to and remember that any progress is good progress! Good Luck!
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